WAKE UP?

EVER WAKE UP AND THINK Y THE FUCK AM I MAKING THE EFFORT TO BE A BETTER PERSON WHEN THE ONE UR CHANGING FOR WONT DO THE SAME THING BACK??????

Iwant whats best for some people who i care about but when i say something im made out to be the bad guy!!
i mean one day ill get sick of it and leave and find people who acutually give a shit about me and what i say! im not the bad guy im trying to help people and they shove it back in my face maybay i should just leave her and find someone who cares about me and what i say!!!!!!

me being stupid thinking bout stupid shit !

the other day i was thinking and a huge fuckin speech popped into my head!!

it was the answer to a question to a question i,ve been asking myself..
that question was :If love is real how do we find it?
and the answer i came up with is
you dont it finds you if you are lucky enough !!

Also the answer to the 2nd question:what is pain?

in my opinion real pain is related to the 1st question. Pain can only be really felt by people who have loved and lost the person they cared about deeply!!

but you cant expect love to just randomly show up out of the blue! you have to go out talk to a lot of peopleget to know people.. dont sit in your room doing fuck all.

my advice go to a youth club with 1 or 2 friends and talk to random people who interests are similer to yours! the best thing in life is to find someone who is so similer to you that you know what their going to say befor they do only after a few weeks of knowing them! you will not meet the right person at a disco because you dont know them befor you make out with them.. i just started talking to a amazing girl and something just felt right at the pit of my stomach. i got nervous talking to her being beside her! heck even being in the same room with her was to much! so we started talking and it was the most amazing thing to happen to me i dont know if she felt something click or it was just me!
anyway i went completly of what i was saying =/!! ok now i forget what i was talking about!! fuck it anyway!

well im going to go

love glue!!
xxxxx

ok im so fuckin bored i decided to blog!! my songs r shit but there really poems so dont complain!! im expressing myself(but honestly i dont care)

so far i got no followers so i may as well say !! hii my names mat ! im 16 live in a shitty village called clane but spend most of my time asleep in school or Celbridge with such epic people such as ,my amazing gf sionnan, the epicness that is DAN(has to be in caps because lower case isn't epic enough for him) jonney (who is the future angus young), eilse for always being there when im sad!! and so many other epic people also aoife(efa) who is just awesome!!

so ye 30 seconds to mars tomorrow cant wait should be fun cant wait to see sionnan and dan! also im meeting dans gf who is supposed to be awesome so im lookin forward to that!

So today was shit my m8s r still pissed at each other and im in the middle of it!!

and i have the best parents in the world me and my dad r goin california for a week for a big ass karate tournament!! gona be epic!!

thanks for readin

peace out!!

love glue!!

xxxxxxxxx

first blog!!

HAII GUY'S!!

welcolm to my blog like you give a damn!!

well i have no idea what to blog about!!
so probally the only thing on this will be bout my shitty life
or songs and poems that i write!!

i might put one up later!!!